I am an employee, a daughter, a friend, a sister, a mother, a coworker, a student, a cousin, a niece and an aunt. I am also an addict. I was clean and sober for almost five years and was doing quite well for myself. Slowly, I forgot to put my recovery first, things unraveled quickly and I ended up using again. I relapsed and continued to use until I had alienated my friends, my family, my coworkers, and my husband. I kept using until I was fired from my job and my husband divorced me. I kept using despite getting arrested and getting charged with a felony. I even kept using when my son was taken from my care and he had to live with my parents until I could get clean.
I kept using until I hit rock bottom.
This is how I arrived at Wayside treatment center. Broken, lost, battered, ashamed, and empty. I was spiritually, emotionally, morally and physically bankrupt. I no longer had a will to live. All of my worldly possessions fit into a 5 x 10 storage unit. I was homeless, jobless, friendless and scared. I had no idea how to help myself and nowhere to turn.
From the moment I arrived at Wayside, something changed.
I found a little spark inside of me. Faith, that maybe, just maybe, things could be okay. There were a lot of women and staff at Wayside who were genuinely concerned for me and for my welfare. They made me feel welcome, comfortable and not so alone. I finally had an opportunity to work on myself and my issues so that I could be a productive member of society again.
I had help with everything from creating a resume to getting to the doctor for the first time in years. I had help with parenting classes to learn how I could reconnect with my son when I got him back. I had yoga, dancing and walks around a beautiful pond to help me keep my body in shape. I learned about relapse prevention and behavior modification skills so that I could better cope with feelings and emotions that may trigger me to use in the future.
The lessons and experience I was given in the 90 days I spent inpatient at Wayside women’s treatment center were invaluable!
They without a doubt saved my life and the life of my son.
I couldn’t repay them if I had a million lives to live. What they do is magic - pure and simple. They care, they teach, they mentor, they love, they value women until the Wayside women can learn to value themselves.
Today I am still an addict but I am living a life of recovery.
I am living at Wayside Supportive Housing and I work, I pay rent, I go to school and I parent my son. I will be present and able to spend Thanksgiving and Christmas with my parents, aunts, uncles and friends. If it wasn’t for Wayside, I wouldn’t be home for the holidays. I would be dead, in jail, or on the street and I know I don’t deserve that. In fact, no one does. Save a life, save several and help support Wayside so more women and children like myself and my son can be saved.
Hello, I’m Angel and I came to Wayside Family Treatment on January 17, 2014. Before Wayside I was in one of the toughest points in my life – struggling with addiction, homelessness and Child Protection Services. I struggled to find my purpose in life. I couch hopped and had no stability. My turning point was dealing with Child Protection Services with my son.
At Wayside Family Treatment I was scared and didn’t know what to expect.
Wayside was the best place I could have gone to.
I learned a lot about myself, my addiction and most of all, my recovery. Wayside made me realize how bad I wanted recovery for myself and my children.
I felt loved and safe.
Wayside is one of the biggest blessings that came into my life.
I’ve accomplished so much in my life since Wayside. I’ve regained custody of all of my kids. I regained my sobriety and safe and suitable housing at Wayside Supportive Housing. I want to thank Wayside Family Treatment staff for all of their support and their sincere love and care for all of their residents and for everything they’ve done for me and my family. I also want to thank Wayside Supportive Housing for giving me the opportunity to be a resident in their community and for their love and support.
Hi! My name is Caitlin and thanks to the incredible support I received and still receive from Wayside, I am a very grateful recovering addict and alcoholic.
I entered the Wayside treatment facility on Aug. 5th 2014 as a frail, shattered, lost soul. I was 25 and had been using drugs and alcohol for 15 years.
Wayside was my tenth treatment program.
I had no hope left and was full of shame and guilt.
I faced many challenges during my stay. The most difficult of those being my son moving to Washington to live with my uncle. With the support and compassion of the staff, I began to find myself. For the first time in my life I became honest with myself and in turn was able to be honest with others as well. I learned how to show myself compassion and began chipping away at the walls I had built around me. I allowed other women into my life and we shared our pain and suffering as well as our joy and happiness. I made amazing friends that have continued to be a part of my life in recovery and have become the best friendships I have ever experienced in my life.
I left Wayside and entered sober housing, which in the past had been a step I had refused to take. My three-month stay in sober housing was where the real test began. I was forced to make a choice. Every woman that came through my sober house relapsed and I began to comprehend the multitude of emotion that the outside world feels when a recovering addict goes back out. I stood strong and continued on. I upped my meetings when times were hard and followed advice and got a sponsor. My son moved back to Minnesota with my grandparents that November, and by the end of January, I had built up enough trust with them to move back in as well. I had given up on school in the midst of my addiction and decided that it just wasn’t for me, however a dear friend I had made through my treatment process kindly suggested that I go back to college for my LADC, and after about 24 hours of thinking I decided it was a beautiful idea.
I am currently in my first semester at Century College for my Associates in Science for Chemical Dependency. I work part time as a server, attend school full time, and attend 4-5 meetings a week. I sponsor women and I have a sponsor. I work the steps and take suggestions.
I have adopted a way of life that, 15 months ago, was completely foreign to me.
I have custody of my son and we live together as a happy little family.
My life isn’t perfect AND because of the support and compassion of Wayside, I have found a way to manage my life without the use of drugs and alcohol. I can handle anything life throws at me as long as I don’t pick up that first drink or drug.
Today, I am a worthwhile woman and I deserve to be loved, and respected, AND SOBER!
Sobriety date: 7/11/2014